new found joy?

Much has happened since the bad breakup in January. In fact, 2008 and 2009 are probably 2 years i will never forget. Briefly put, I almost died from a car accident whilst at work, broke up with my girlfriend of close to 2 years, injured my left hand causing lacerations by broken glass, got bitten by friend's dog on right bicep, got into a fight with 5 people in a club (first time and i won :P), i finally moved out from bishan to woodlands, plucked my wisdom tooth, and alot more i guess. I have been upset, depressed and curled myself up in a corner. Shunning away from the world's grace, mercy and company. I have been feeling so alone amidst the horde of people around me. Feels as if purpose of living has disappeared and im just living day by day, looking at whatever passes by me as a third person. Often it feels as if im not there but wandering the plains of the netherworld. Searching for an unknown to help me get out of this constant pulsating misery.

I think i have found it. I am uncertain. The constant influx of happiness and sadness confuses me. Instead of being bothered of a lost sense of purpose, the focal point is now on whats ahead of me. Can i be saved from the pit i have dug so far beneath i forgot how it feels to be up top? I really wonder.

Sane amongst insane.

Standing in the corner,

Silently,quietly.

The world engulfs itself with flames of destruction.

Flowers loses its colour,

Food loses its taste.

Crumbling to the ground,

trapped under the rubble.

to be of the world or to be above the world?

the neverending fight of good vs evil.

the undying nature of selflessness

versus

the cruel nature of selfishness.

to say "money is only a tool, i'm not a fool"

or "money is everything! i can buy many things"

tsk

which are you?

Labelled for life.

make a mistake.

fail a task of expectation.

be imperfect.

are 3 of the many ways to get yourself labelled.

humans.

all imperfect but perfection is expected out of one another.

ironic.

paint the picture.

adhesive nature.

who am i?

Love is...

Love is blind, it does not mind.



Love is kind, it does not bind.



Love is great, it does not rate.



So why wait?



Just take the bait!



:)



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Money.

Why is it so important?

Why does it create and break lifes?

Why can't we just live without it?

Oh boy; Isn't it an understatement when i say money is indeed important?

In this ever realistic earth we live in, without money is equivalent to not having power.

The power to do every materialistic deed of our dreams.

I come from down under and it seems to me i really need this.

Yes, i need money.

Why u might ask?

So i wouldnt have to worry, to count every cent i spent.

Cause really, its that bad.

I often dream of a world without money.

Without any limits.

Because thats what money really is.

Its a limitation to living beyond what we possibly can right now.

Its a boundary and big block of iceberg.

And yet its funny that we need it.

I guess this world can only be found in the afterlife.

Without a worry, greed and lust.

So what can i say?

Wait. Wait for this materialistic world would not be brought forth after we leave it.

Thus this is our purpose.

To live on this world.

And to help as many people as we can; Go to where we would want to after it is all over.